This incredible man showed me that my heart will never stop expanding. And so on this anniversary of his death my heart breaks open a little wider and my love grows a little brighter. This is my tribute to him. This is my love song.
I don’t want to always feel I need to fill in the blanks and sew up the holes and put filler in the gaps. I want there to be space. I want there to be blanks and gaps. It makes breathing easier. It offers a kind of balance. It feels most human.
After I left my husband I had a hard time finding a path to healing. I didn’t know anyone who had lived through domestic violence. No one spoke about it at least. It felt shameful. It was as though I had arrived at a cross roads in my life. Do I hide behind a mask […]
Real men don’t cry.
That’s how I was raised. That’s how my dad was raised, and my grandpa, and my great grandpa, and probably every man in my family forever.
Real men don’t show emotion. Well, happiness is okay, and anger if it’s controlled. But sadness? Crying? Never.
I would like to personally message or email Ella. I can’t seem to find a place to do so. Her page and story are so inspiring. I’m happy and admire the fact she found the strength to leave such a miserable situation. I myself have never lived in an abusive relationship. However, my life long best friend, my sister, was murdered by her abusive husband back in 2005. Her two beautiful young daughters were murdered as well. 😥
Shawna, Thank you for connecting with me. I am so sorry about your loss. There is nothing that I can say that will make it any better I know that. It is heartbreaking to hear about this and I know better than anyone how lucky I am that my kids and I are still here on this planet. Please visit me on Facebook…we have such an amazing Rebel Thriver community there that you will love. xo Ella