“When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow.” – Shauna Niequist
And so it goes day in and day out as we live our lives. Planning and dreaming for what we hope will manifest in our lives. I often speak of my life in relation to the tides. I imagine this is because the sea is my next door neighbor and her tides, along with the moon have so much influence on my life. Life truly is about ebb and flow. We receive and we give, win and lose, we experience joy and sadness, health and sickness, and ultimately we see birth and death. The circle of life is no joke. How ironic that man used to think the world as flat; and how brave they were to sail their ships out past the horizon wondering if they would just drop off the edge into oblivion following their dreams.
Life really is about circling back though, isn’t it? I like this idea and it always comforts me when I pull the short stick. There are countless quotes out there in reference to this very subject too.
“Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.” – Helen Keller
“In every end, there is also a beginning.” – Libba Bray
“Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness.” -Oprah Winfrey
“A really strong woman accepts the war she went through and is ennobled by her scars.” – Carly Simon
In the end we are all saying the same thing…circle back. We may be on the precipice feeling like we have conquered our world, when the foundation starts to crumble and we fall. Flat. It happen’s to all of us and it doesn’t get any easier…we just get wiser. It is in our weakness that we will find our strength if we are open to it. If we are prepared to sit amongst the rubble and ask the question, “Why?”
It at these moment’s in our lives that we must push ourselves to raise our heads and not give into the gravitational pull of depression. I admit it isn’t easy and sometimes I find that I am just so tired that I am tempted to sink into the soft cushion of despair and wallow for a moment. I have learned thought that the longer I do the harder it is to get up and out for that soft cushion is more like quicksand. It will continue to suck your energy and your confidence; your self-worth and your essence right along with it.
“In the depth of Winter I found in me an invincible Summer.” – Albert Camus
So here sitting in the rubble after falling from the highest high we have found that life has yet again circled back on us. I can’t tell you how many times I have experienced this. It took me years to realize that I had to ask “Why?” Not a hypothetical one, but a serious and informed “Why?” I wanted to know how in defeat I could find victory. What I learned was this…
Life does not break us. It bends us and molds us into who we are meant to become if we are open to it. I used to think of myself as broken, but not anymore. That person learned a few years ago that she cannot break. I may bend low like the trees in a storm, but like the trees my roots are deep. The hardest part for me is having patience. It is not something I struggle with in other people…it is a self infliction of sorts. I don’t like fumbling around with the pieces trying to figure out why puzzle fell apart…i just want to start fresh and get on with it. This has been my Achilles heel because I have repeated the same mistake over again; I didn’t take the time to ask,”Why?”
When I hit the bottom I just want to hit the reset button and GO! It doesn’t work like that, and anyone who thinks it does is really fooling themselves. Healing takes time. Learning takes time. We all know that Rome wasn’t built-in a day. So, neither shall our lives. I am learning that when I am in the process of working through a tough life situation that I need to breathe. I need to take time for myself to be more introspective. I need to ask “Why?” and “What am I meant to learn from this?” In the end, time is a wise leader. Seven years ago I never thought I would be where I am now . It would have seemed impossible for me to get here. Then again, in other ways I never thought I would be here now trying to learn lessons that I wish I had learned so long ago. Life is funny like that.
“If life knocks you down seven times…get back up eight.” – unknown
“To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable.” – Hellen Keller
The point here is that I am a bit down as I write this, but in the very act of writing this I am learning what I need to know and I am getting back up. I am hopefully helping someone else get back up too. For in the end we all will fall…countless times. Every time you consciously work through your stumbles you will build a stronger foundation. The falls won’t stop because that’s life and we don’t have control. In the end you will see that everything circles back, but the hope is that we learn to handle it better. You really are worth the time and the energy. You really are worth your own effort. XO Ella
“Don’t compromise yourself. You are all you’ve got.” – Janis Joplin